Today, I feel nervous. I've been spending most of my anxiety thoughts lately on ......
... Who am I going to call, when it's baby time, to come stay with Griffin and Kai? .....
.... Do I have the "volunteers" home phone and cell phone numbers? ...
..... If Jeff is at school, will the pre-paid cell phone I got for him have reception in his classroom?
With most of the above questions answered, I was able to think about the actual task ahead of me. For those of you who don't know, I tend to have very fast labors. Since before Griffin was born, I had NO second thoughts about epidurals. If it's going to feel better and make the experience more enjoyable -- BRING IT ON!!! However, I've never been able to get one.
My labor with Griffin was 3 hrs. total. With Kai, it was 1.5 hrs total. Yeah, you could say I barely make it to the hospital in time. With both boys, I've been a '9' when I arrive, so there's been no time for pain meds. I definitely look at that as lucky AND unlucky.
So, while watching the Discovery Health Channel today, I saw a mom going through the pain I will be probably be facing here in the next few weeks. It was unnerving. Especially since I go so fast. There's no time to think or control ANYTHING!!! I'm a little scared.
Then comes the fear of, "Is the baby okay?". Kai was in the NICU for almost a week and it was super hard! Even though he was the baby there with possibly the LEAST serious condition, all of your post-labor emotions erupt at the slightest problem. I pray I don't have to go through that again.
Tugs at your heartstrings, doesn't it?
5 comments:
Hey! We're like twinsies!! Both my labors were fast (though not as freakishly fast as yours), Justin spent time in the NICU (horrible, absolutely horrible) and my labors were natural. However, I prefer them natural. There are benefits to a drug-free labor, but I also have an irrational fear of needles going into back. A needle in my back? No thanks. Bring on the pain instead.
Good luck with your approaching delivery!! Have you guys decided on a name? If you're not telling anyone, I can respect that. I hate telling people the name before the birth. It's weird to me. But I always ask. :P
The name we are going with, as of now...(I don't know why it would change, but it's never for sure until I write it down on the birth certificate)....... is:
TREYSON DOUGLAS GARDNER
'Trey'-'son' for 'third'-'son', Douglas is my Dad's name.
So there it is. I'll probably explain the name again when he's actually born, but you heard it first.
I like it!! I like it a lot!!
What a cute name! And original too! Gosh, two babies and no epidural...that scares the crap out of me. I was in labor for 5 hours and only dilated to 2 before I got the epi with Kade, and it still took 6 more hours after that WITH petosin drip. Gavin was a week late, and finally induced, and thank goodness I got the epi with him because he was over 10 lbs.!
Crazy :)
OOOOOOOHHHHHH! Thats all I have to say
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