Tuesday, April 8, 2008


Today, I feel nervous. I've been spending most of my anxiety thoughts lately on ......

... Who am I going to call, when it's baby time, to come stay with Griffin and Kai? .....

.... Do I have the "volunteers" home phone and cell phone numbers? ...

..... If Jeff is at school, will the pre-paid cell phone I got for him have reception in his classroom?

With most of the above questions answered, I was able to think about the actual task ahead of me. For those of you who don't know, I tend to have very fast labors. Since before Griffin was born, I had NO second thoughts about epidurals. If it's going to feel better and make the experience more enjoyable -- BRING IT ON!!! However, I've never been able to get one.

My labor with Griffin was 3 hrs. total. With Kai, it was 1.5 hrs total. Yeah, you could say I barely make it to the hospital in time. With both boys, I've been a '9' when I arrive, so there's been no time for pain meds. I definitely look at that as lucky AND unlucky.

So, while watching the Discovery Health Channel today, I saw a mom going through the pain I will be probably be facing here in the next few weeks. It was unnerving. Especially since I go so fast. There's no time to think or control ANYTHING!!! I'm a little scared.

Then comes the fear of, "Is the baby okay?". Kai was in the NICU for almost a week and it was super hard! Even though he was the baby there with possibly the LEAST serious condition, all of your post-labor emotions erupt at the slightest problem. I pray I don't have to go through that again.

Tugs at your heartstrings, doesn't it?


Danielle said...

Hey! We're like twinsies!! Both my labors were fast (though not as freakishly fast as yours), Justin spent time in the NICU (horrible, absolutely horrible) and my labors were natural. However, I prefer them natural. There are benefits to a drug-free labor, but I also have an irrational fear of needles going into back. A needle in my back? No thanks. Bring on the pain instead.

Good luck with your approaching delivery!! Have you guys decided on a name? If you're not telling anyone, I can respect that. I hate telling people the name before the birth. It's weird to me. But I always ask. :P

The Gardner Gang said...

The name we are going with, as of now...(I don't know why it would change, but it's never for sure until I write it down on the birth certificate)....... is:
'Trey'-'son' for 'third'-'son', Douglas is my Dad's name.
So there it is. I'll probably explain the name again when he's actually born, but you heard it first.

Danielle said...

I like it!! I like it a lot!!

Jasmyn said...

What a cute name! And original too! Gosh, two babies and no epidural...that scares the crap out of me. I was in labor for 5 hours and only dilated to 2 before I got the epi with Kade, and it still took 6 more hours after that WITH petosin drip. Gavin was a week late, and finally induced, and thank goodness I got the epi with him because he was over 10 lbs.!
Crazy :)

Russ and Debbie said...

OOOOOOOHHHHHH! Thats all I have to say